So it was a year ago today that we found out that moms cancer had come back. And boy has our world changed since then. Of course it was just less then 2 months later and she would be gone. We miss her terribly, but we (I) would not want her to have to be back in this world for anything. So many things are different, but we have done so many good things to. Maybe I will reflect more on those things later, but sometimes I feel like I am so sad that she has passed (and there is nothing wrong with that) that I might not take the time to enjoy what I still have. So I don't want to be someone who looks JUST at what I do not have anymore, but in remembering those things make what is STILL here that much better. Might not make much sense and I have never been good at writing, but just wanted to put that out there. So don't ever take what you have for granted, cause you never know. Mom and I could have some good disagreements, and we did not always see eye to eye on things. And that sometimes made mom feel bad, which is turn would make me feel bad. To the point that sometimes I would not voice my opinion or thought on something if I knew mom wouldn't like it. But you know I wish now of course that she was hear to do that with. Funny I know, but I think everyone feels that way when they lose someone.
So January 12th will be a day I remember along with the anniversary of her death.